Cissy Vallario (![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} cissysaidso) wrote,@ 2009-09-21 01:40:00 |
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Wednesday - 1/17/08
Jonah,
I want to preface this email by saying that the way that I feel about you hasn't changed. I'd still like for us to try again. And I still hope that, if we do try again, that things actually work, but that's not what this email is about.
On Monday, when you sent me that email about what Nox had said, I freaked out. I had this idea in my head that we couldn't really raise a child together or have a family with one another unless you and I happened to be together as well. But I've had a lot of time to think since then, a lot of time to think about my own childhood and the shortcomings therein and what exactly it is that I want to avoid having my own child experience, and I've come to the conclusion that it wouldn't be the end of the world or a tragedy of Shakespearean proportions if you and I were to never be anything more than just friends. Yes, as I mentioned above, I'd prefer otherwise, but preference has nothing to really do with it. We could still raise our child and make that child a part of a family regardless of whether or not you and I work things out as long as we work at it together and respect one another in the process.
I have not always been so great at keeping my word. Because of this, I know you have plenty of reason to take everything I say here with a grain of salt. But before you decide that this is nothing more than a bunch of BS that I've concocted, I want to express that, at this point in my life, and probably from this point forward, nothing means more to me than our child. I have never and will never love anyone or anything the way that I love our baby already, and I will always keep his or her best interest in mind, and the promise that I make to you now is keeping in exactly that. I will never do anything to keep our child from you. This includes, but is not limited to, moving far away from where you are, badmouthing you to our child in an attempt to turn him or her against you, trying to fill the role of father in our child's life with someone else, or assuming that just because I am the one carrying this child that I have more rights to him or her than you do.
You are a good man. You are a wonderful father to your son. And no matter what happens or doesn't happen between us, I stand beside what I said before; I'm glad that you're the father of my child.
Love Always,
Celia
Jonah,
I want to preface this email by saying that the way that I feel about you hasn't changed. I'd still like for us to try again. And I still hope that, if we do try again, that things actually work, but that's not what this email is about.
On Monday, when you sent me that email about what Nox had said, I freaked out. I had this idea in my head that we couldn't really raise a child together or have a family with one another unless you and I happened to be together as well. But I've had a lot of time to think since then, a lot of time to think about my own childhood and the shortcomings therein and what exactly it is that I want to avoid having my own child experience, and I've come to the conclusion that it wouldn't be the end of the world or a tragedy of Shakespearean proportions if you and I were to never be anything more than just friends. Yes, as I mentioned above, I'd prefer otherwise, but preference has nothing to really do with it. We could still raise our child and make that child a part of a family regardless of whether or not you and I work things out as long as we work at it together and respect one another in the process.
I have not always been so great at keeping my word. Because of this, I know you have plenty of reason to take everything I say here with a grain of salt. But before you decide that this is nothing more than a bunch of BS that I've concocted, I want to express that, at this point in my life, and probably from this point forward, nothing means more to me than our child. I have never and will never love anyone or anything the way that I love our baby already, and I will always keep his or her best interest in mind, and the promise that I make to you now is keeping in exactly that. I will never do anything to keep our child from you. This includes, but is not limited to, moving far away from where you are, badmouthing you to our child in an attempt to turn him or her against you, trying to fill the role of father in our child's life with someone else, or assuming that just because I am the one carrying this child that I have more rights to him or her than you do.
You are a good man. You are a wonderful father to your son. And no matter what happens or doesn't happen between us, I stand beside what I said before; I'm glad that you're the father of my child.
Love Always,
Celia