Tuesday - Feb 5th, 2008 - Phone Call : Cissy/Simon

cissysaidso (5:02:32 PM): Hello?
SimpleCurtisy (5:02:59 PM): *pause* Um... hey Cissy.
cissysaidso (5:03:56 PM): Simon... Hi.Hey.
SimpleCurtisy (5:04:21 PM): So I called like I said I would.
cissysaidso (5:05:35 PM): Yeah. You did. I'm... glad.
SimpleCurtisy (5:06:22 PM): *cough* So, um... does she have a name?
cissysaidso (5:09:08 PM): Uhm... no, not exactly. We were... discussing so... I wasn't.. I mean he was going to... No, she doesn't have a name.
SimpleCurtisy (5:10:00 PM): *long pause* Oh.
cissysaidso (5:10:24 PM): Is there... Have you thought of anything?
SimpleCurtisy (5:10:56 PM): Alicia.
cissysaidso (5:11:31 PM): That's cute. Is it... after someone or something?
SimpleCurtisy (5:12:47 PM): No. It's just... Ophelia and I were talking about it yesterday and she suggested it. I liked it.
cissysaidso (5:13:20 PM): Oh.
SimpleCurtisy (5:13:46 PM): ...You hate it.
cissysaidso (5:15:56 PM): No, the name's okay. It's just... modern?
SimpleCurtisy (5:17:37 PM): I like modern. It's better then biblical
cissysaidso (5:18:33 PM): Okay, so maybe I just don't want to use a name that's suggested by someone who thinks it's okay to email me specifically to tell me
cissysaidso (5:18:38 PM): that she thinks I'm a bitch.
SimpleCurtisy (5:19:11 PM): *laughs a little* She did that??
cissysaidso (5:20:21 PM): It's not funny. She doesn't even know me. And I'm seriously sick of people who don't even know me trying to tell me who I am.
SimpleCurtisy (5:21:46 PM): *gravely* She's my best friend. So yeah... she knows you. She knows everything that happened.
cissysaidso (5:22:38 PM): No, she doesn't know me. She knows what she's heard about me. There's a difference.
SimpleCurtisy (5:23:25 PM): And knowing what she's heard, can you blame her?
cissysaidso (5:24:33 PM): Yeah, I can blame her for emailing a pregnant woman who is already under enough stress specifically to talk shit.
SimpleCurtisy (5:25:43 PM): You being pregnant doesn't change anything you did. So don't expect sympathy because of it.
cissysaidso (5:27:32 PM): If this is going to turn into another one of those "Cissy you're a terrible person" phone calls, then you may as well just hang up.
cissysaidso (5:27:45 PM): Because I'm already aware of that and I don't need to hear it from you or anyone else right now.
SimpleCurtisy (5:28:42 PM): *sigh* I don't want to argue. You and I need to be at least friendly for this to work at all.
cissysaidso (5:31:15 PM): *sniffles* Well she still had no business sending me that email. She's your friend and that's great. I'm happy that she is, but I
cissysaidso (5:31:44 PM): don't need her telling me things I already know.
SimpleCurtisy (5:32:47 PM): She's just worried about me. You do tend to... kinda... destroy me.
cissysaidso (5:34:59 PM): I know.
SimpleCurtisy (5:36:05 PM): *quietly* And she's been there for me. So... be nice. And I'll make her be nice.
cissysaidso (5:37:02 PM): I was nice. I just.. told her that I already knew that but that this wasn't about us, it's about the baby and... I asked her to try
cissysaidso (5:37:11 PM): not to hate me because I'mm already stressed out enough.
SimpleCurtisy (5:38:30 PM): Well she really matters to me, so just... thanks.
cissysaidso (5:41:04 PM): And our baby really matters to me so... if she can't be nice, then she just shouldn't talk to me. It's not good for me to...
cissysaidso (5:41:07 PM): be upset all the time.
SimpleCurtisy (5:42:08 PM): I'll ask her to be nice. For the baby.
cissysaidso (5:43:00 PM): Thank you.
SimpleCurtisy (5:44:16 PM): She's really sweet, you know. I think you'll like her. She's just protective.
cissysaidso (5:45:05 PM): I could say the same thing about Ric. You should really.. try not to dislike him so much. I doubt I would have even made it through
cissysaidso (5:45:11 PM): the first three months if t wasn't for him.
SimpleCurtisy (5:46:26 PM): *silence*
cissysaidso (5:49:56 PM): Nothing's ever happened between us, Simon....
SimpleCurtisy (5:50:32 PM): It's none of my business.
cissysaidso (5:51:26 PM): No, not really, but he's important to me and I don't want you to dislike him for no real reason.
SimpleCurtisy (5:52:09 PM): *evenly* I don't dislike him
cissysaidso (5:52:33 PM): Then what?
SimpleCurtisy (5:53:18 PM): Nothing.
cissysaidso (5:54:47 PM): Talk to me, please.
SimpleCurtisy (5:57:26 PM): It's nothing, really. I'll get used to him. And you'll get used to Ophie, and we'll get used to each other
cissysaidso (5:59:25 PM): *sighs* Grace. I like the name Grace. Maybe even if it's just a middle name?
SimpleCurtisy (6:00:27 PM): I'm not opposed to Grace.
cissysaidso (6:02:15 PM): How do you... feel?
SimpleCurtisy (6:03:59 PM): About?
cissysaidso (6:04:37 PM): *small laugh* About the baby.
SimpleCurtisy (6:06:20 PM): Absolutely terrified
cissysaidso (6:07:27 PM): *exhales a sharp breath* Me too.
SimpleCurtisy (6:08:41 PM): But I'm not gonna be like my dad.
cissysaidso (6:09:01 PM): And I'm not gonna be like my mom.
SimpleCurtisy (6:10:29 PM): ...Maybe don't be like my mom, either.
cissysaidso (6:10:52 PM): *laughs* Or my dad?
SimpleCurtisy (6:11:26 PM): Your dad seemed okay
cissysaidso (6:12:00 PM): My dad let me get by with anything and everything and look how I turned out. No thank you!
SimpleCurtisy (6:12:22 PM): But you know he loves you
cissysaidso (6:13:20 PM): And your mom loves you, but that doesn't exactly make them role models.
SimpleCurtisy (6:14:03 PM): *smiling* Well I'm gonna spoil her as best I can. You can't stop me.
cissysaidso (6:15:09 PM): *smiles* Good. Little girls need to be spoiled by their daddies. I'll be sure to let you know when it's time to say "no" though.
SimpleCurtisy (6:15:54 PM): I think of the two of us, I'm better at saying "no"
cissysaidso (6:16:15 PM): *gasp* That's a low blow, Mr. Curtis!
SimpleCurtisy (6:16:24 PM): *pause* I didn't mean that in a bad way.
SimpleCurtisy (6:16:38 PM): I meant... you shop a lot. And you're frivilous.
cissysaidso (6:17:13 PM): I know you didn't. And I do. I am. But I'm getting better!
cissysaidso (6:17:43 PM): Last time I went shopping, I bought clothes that should last through the entire rest of my pregnancy instead of just trying to squeeze into cute things that wouldn't last very long.
SimpleCurtisy (6:18:07 PM): Where'd you buy from?
cissysaidso (6:18:59 PM): Motherhood? It's the only maternity store in the mall. I mostly got dresses and leggings. I mean... I still want to look at least a little bit cute.
SimpleCurtisy (6:19:52 PM): *softly* I don't think that'll ever be a problem
cissysaidso (6:21:31 PM): ...Thanks
SimpleCurtisy (6:21:42 PM): Yeah.
cissysaidso (6:22:56 PM): So uhm, whatever her name is, she'll be cute. I think we can establish that much.
SimpleCurtisy (6:23:25 PM): *soft breath* Cissy... I'm trying to get over you. And I was hoping that you'd... well that you'd let me. I know that ideally if we're having a baby we should be in love and stuff, but... I just...
cissysaidso (6:26:19 PM): *sighs* Look, Simon, I know that you sent that email out of... out of hurt and I'm not.. I won't take it seriously and I don't think that this is some sort of magical fix but... I'm not going to make any promises about just... letting go either..
SimpleCurtisy (6:27:53 PM): *voice hoarse* I really don't think I want to hear this from you right now.
cissysaidso (6:29:00 PM): Then we won't talk about it.
SimpleCurtisy (6:30:41 PM): Thank you. I know this is hard for you too, but you've had months to think about it, get used to it.
cissysaidso (6:31:30 PM): About the baby, yes. About the baby being yours.... I only got a 24 hour head start. *laughs softly*
SimpleCurtisy (6:32:39 PM): Well I had thought she wasn't mine, and that you and Jonah were... and you'd moved on and were happy. And now you're not, and everyone's miserable and I just... it's overwhelming.
cissysaidso (6:34:28 PM): I haven't and I wasn't and they are and... it is.
SimpleCurtisy (6:36:25 PM): I don't want a relationship with you. I mean, outside of friendship.
cissysaidso (6:38:33 PM): We're never gonna just be friends, Simon.
SimpleCurtisy (6:39:02 PM): Well we're never going to be lovers, either. So there has to be something between.
SimpleCurtisy (6:39:25 PM): ...Flovers? Lovends?
cissysaidso (6:41:58 PM): *laughs and then groans* Let's not talk about this either, okay? I mean... can't we just decide that whatever happens happens and we'll just.. deal with it when it does happen and, if it never does, then we don't have to?
SimpleCurtisy (6:42:27 PM): That's a pretty good plan. Because planning stuff never really works, huh?
cissysaidso (6:44:46 PM): Exactly. I mean.. if planning things worked, I'd be in college right now and.. you'd be blissfully unaware of what an extraordinary fuck up I can be.
SimpleCurtisy (6:46:23 PM): I wouldn't say 'extraordinary', exactly. Just... all encompasing?
cissysaidso (6:46:58 PM): *laughs* Right. That's soooo much better.
SimpleCurtisy (6:47:17 PM): It could be worse
cissysaidso (6:47:42 PM): I suppose so.
SimpleCurtisy (6:49:11 PM): You could be continuing to fuck up.
cissysaidso (6:51:19 PM): Mmm, yeah, that just doesn't work for me. *laughs softly* I've come too far to keep fucking it all up no matter how... not so easy it is to do the right thing sometimes.
SimpleCurtisy (6:52:10 PM): I'm really glad you told me. You could have just not said anything, let Jonah go on believing that the baby was his, but... thank you.
cissysaidso (6:53:46 PM): I could have. And maybe once upon a time, I would have but... You're welcome.
cissysaidso (7:04:16 PM): You're gonna be a great dad, Simon.
SimpleCurtisy (7:04:48 PM): Well, I don't know about great. But I want to be one.
cissysaidso (7:06:03 PM): Well, I mean technically, you already are a dad.
SimpleCurtisy (7:06:38 PM): No. A dad is the guy who plays with their kid and spends time with them. Right now I'm just a donor.
cissysaidso (7:07:35 PM): Well you're more than welcome to spend time with her any time you like. She likes being read to. I think it puts her to sleep.
SimpleCurtisy (7:08:31 PM): You read to her?
cissysaidso (7:09:51 PM): Of course. Studies have proven that children who are read to or sang to while in the womb are usually much more advanced when it comes to learning things after they're born.
SimpleCurtisy (7:10:58 PM): Hm. Well I want her to be very smart.
SimpleCurtisy (7:11:11 PM): I can't sing, though
cissysaidso (7:12:48 PM): Me neither. *laughs* But I at least try and... It's really weird like... the way it feels, being able to tell that she.. reacts. You should try it sometime. If you put your hand on my tummy and talk to her, you'll probably be able to feel it..
SimpleCurtisy (7:13:23 PM): You feel her move?
cissysaidso (7:14:22 PM): Of course. *laughs softly* She's wiggling all over the place right now. It kinda feels like... butterflies in my tummy.
SimpleCurtisy (7:14:57 PM): *breathy* Wow.
cissysaidso (7:15:38 PM): *laughs* Yeah, it is pretty wow.
SimpleCurtisy (7:16:42 PM): That's just... I know she's alive, but feeling her move must be... that's really amazing.
cissysaidso (7:18:41 PM): Well any time that you want to like... I mean I know she's... inside of me which makes things.. complicated but.. if you ever want to just... I wouldn't mind.
SimpleCurtisy (7:19:40 PM): .....Alright. Maybe I will. She should get to know me, right?
cissysaidso (7:21:11 PM): Yeah, definitely.
SimpleCurtisy (7:24:07 PM): Okay.
cissysaidso (7:24:47 PM): Just let me know when. My calendar is pretty much open so...
SimpleCurtisy (7:25:02 PM): I will. I promise.
cissysaidso (7:25:37 PM): Okay.
SimpleCurtisy (7:25:57 PM): Um... I should go. I got... homework and... stuff.
cissysaidso (7:26:32 PM): Yeah. I'm totally hungry again. I think I'll go raid the kitchen.
SimpleCurtisy (7:26:43 PM): Okay.
cissysaidso (7:26:57 PM): Or maybe order some chinese. Some sauteed green beans and rice would be really good.
SimpleCurtisy (7:27:50 PM): *soft laugh* Sounds deliciuos.
cissysaidso (7:28:41 PM): *sighs* I am gonna be so fat. *laughs a little* Oh well. Not the end of the world, right?
SimpleCurtisy (7:29:10 PM): Green beans and rice won't make you fat.
cissysaidso (7:30:53 PM): No, but the cake and the ice cream and the grilled chicken salad and the bagel and the peanut butter sandwich and the pickles and, ugh, that entire jar of black olives, along with all the other stuff I've already had to eat today probably will....
SimpleCurtisy (7:31:20 PM): *giggle* Well, yeah, that might. But it's okay. You're supposed to gain baby weight.
cissysaidso (7:31:56 PM): Maybe we could try going out to dinner one night?
SimpleCurtisy (7:32:57 PM): Um... yeah, okay. That would be good.
cissysaidso (7:34:20 PM): Okay. Good. Sounds.. fun. Uhm... I'll talk to you later?
SimpleCurtisy (7:34:50 PM): Yeah, okay. Bye Cissy. And... Bump.
cissysaidso (7:35:14 PM): *smiles* Bye daddy.
SimpleCurtisy (7:35:46 PM): *click*